New Beginings...

WOW...
It has been a while since I last blogged. To say life has been crazy wouldn't be at all appropriate. To say things are crazy sounds like your being funny. I am not laughing.
I am however still in love with my life, it just needs to some major tweaking. I need to reclaim my home, my marriage and some amount of control over the children.
I am not even sure when I lost it, I think it was like a small leak in an inner tube, and just slowly happened! Some major contributing factors where that Cody has changed so fast and entirely. It is so very hard for me as his mother to watch him change from this sweet, innocent, polite boy, into this raging out of control, impatient, rude, lunatic.
The kids ages are hard right now as well. 2, 4, 5 is tough!
I am also still struggling with body pain and being overly low energy and tired. I am going to look for a new Dr. soon, and hopefully get to the bottom of this. Its hard to be my best and do much of anything when I feel like a dish rag!
Caleb has been doing ok. He still is very, very obsessive. That drains me so much! He follows me around saying the same thing over and over. Its really hard to keep my cool sometimes. We never talk about anything else. Like how he is doing, or something interesting that happened. ALL we ever talk about it what Caleb wants for a materialistic item now!!! He thinks things should just be given to him. I can't just give them to him, so ensues the struggle!
Carson is doing so well! He still struggles with impulsivity, but truly is doing awesome! He is reading so well, and has grasped reading comprehension!
Cathryn is now officially potty trained! Carly is finishing up dance. We are working on her interrupting. Connor is doing ok. He struggles a lot with behavior right now! We are considering in home supports for him.
I was being very candid today. Things are coming back together slowly but I am still quite raw from a rough few months!